This year has been quite a extraordinary change for me, and I knew it was coming. In fact, I was terrified of the change. I didn't expect I'd be able to cope with so much being different. But now that it's happened/is happening, I think it's possibly been one of the most beneficial occurrences ever happened to me.
For the record, the last couple of years haven't been the best. They certainly haven't been dreadful, but in myself I was unhappy and I felt very trapped and miserable a lot of the time. I think I was trying to be someone I wasn't, and not in extremes, just in little things like what I liked and what I didn't like. I was scared that I'd just get worse. But this year, with everything changing, I felt like it was a good opportunity to break out of what I used to be and be honest to who I am. So that's what I'm trying to do now, and it's not all sunshine and happiness and confidence, but I'm generally a lot more content with myself and the world.
So I'm going to write a list of 25 good things about myself and the present.
1. My hair is getting longer!
2. The weather is beautiful today.
3. I'm discovering new things.
4. I've been getting closer to different people.
5. I ended a toxic friendship/relationship.
6. I'm a lot more comfortable in my body than I used to be,
7. I'm a lot more confident doing things I like, and less afraid of being judged.
8. I've been getting out more.
9. I've used my holidays for fun.
10. I did my nails and didn't ruin them for the first time in years! (thank you quick-dry nailpolish!)
11. I'm embracing my love of clothes/makeup/hair, despite years of saying I'd never become someone obsessed with it.
12. I have three hilarious and gorgeous kittens.
13. I'm not so afraid of asking people to do things with me.
14. I made pancakes for breakfast.
15. I've found some really good bands recently.
16. I'm getting more clothes I genuinely like.
17. I have friends over more.
18. I'm taking more care of myself.
19. Lauren's sending me a package from America!
20. My mum is one of the funniest people.
21. Cuddles.
22. I've got so much tea!
23. I feel like I'm contributing to the world more.
24. I've decided my favourite flower is a sunflower.
25. My favourite colour is yellow, because yellow makes me happy.
I'm pretty good at the moment. I still have bad days, but they don't last as long.
Things aren't too bad.
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